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A couple of days ago a young man asked me if I went to the fair last weekend. “there was a fair?” I asked. 

He nodded and quietly said “yes“.  My mini-mind searched it’s memory and came up with this:

 

what he meant however is this: 

I said no. I said ‘hell to the nah nah’  I said that is not healthy. 

I related a memory of when there was a fabric store on the same street as this fair. I didn’t remember the date as I have never been a fan of it. I was attempting to buy some fabric and a giant huWhite man dressed in a nazi costume complete with swastika and riding crop gave me the once over twice. I was actually kind of terrified. The cops were close by so I didn’t bother so much.

I thought about it later. How is it that wearing a nazi costume while attending a degenerate ball doesn’t even get a second glance? While at the same time simply being white or advocating for free speech gets you called a nazi in a pejorative way? How is it that a young man thinks it is perfectly acceptable to ask a woman he doesn’t know very well if she went to a BDSM fête? 

I do not like this here now.

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You know what crackas me up about people who hate white nationalists?

Is they hate our guts. But the idea that we are left alone makes them lose control of their bowels.

We hate you but we can’t live without you. Btw I agree with a lot of what Richard “I’ve got great hair” Spencer says but I would be way more insanely fascist. So I am not aligning with him.

The idea that I hate other people out of some weird color dysphoria is beyond silly.  the idea I don’t like to be around people who are violent toward me for no reason whatsoever is pretty understandable. 

Tell me again why I should appreciate Congolife? 

This is not revolting because why? We financially support this because why? This has anything to do with me because why? 

But we are not allowed to not participate because that is hate speech? I’m not seeing the part that is in it for me.

 

But you white people don’t ever think you can escape. You owe these people for an unknown reason. You will never be free. OH and btw we are oppressed because jealousy. Die.

 

 

“I Don’t Want to Have that kind of Wedding”

I kinda of want to say *trigger* warning, that seems kind of lame but, what follows is barbaric at the least.

One of my least favorite topics in the world has to be abortion. I’ve been noticing recently how so often men on the right seem much more comfortable denouncing this than women. When I see this it reminds me of an aspect of men that I see ignored: Men are expected to care about men, women, and children. Female politicians on the other hand tout ‘looking out for women’s interests’ as though that is a unique virtue of theirs and a reason for a person like me to vote for them. 

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I’ve always believed that abortion is a form of murder.This is another reminder that I’m not sure how liberal, outside of nominally, I ever was. The idiotic assertion that a fetus is just a clump of cells never made any sense to me. What is any living creature? We are all clumps of cells. Or that at 6 weeks a fetus is not a person but at 12 weeks it is? That’s some of the strangest (((voodoo))) I’ve ever heard. While I think abortion is one of the most violent acts that can be perpetrated against both women and children, I don’t think it should be criminalized for real reasons I don’t want to go into here but to make a long story short- I don’t think it would be the most effective fight against it.

I’m writing this to expunge a dark liberal memory. How the me of before is different from the me of now. Trying to make sense of how I ever was that person.

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In this story I am about to tell, in no way do I want to suggest that this is normal or average. It’s just something that haunts me. I had this ‘friend’ who was determined to be my very good friend. I was fairly acquiescent out of not having enough energy to be arsed to create a social circle that suited me.

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Anyway, friend came from a very wealthy family and as luck would have it met a very wealthy and nice man from the other side of the country. He was jewish and I think she may have been too, but that was before I knew jews were different. That being said, that element may not have anything to do with this story. I don’t know.

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Not only was he jewish though he had a very high status job. Like a dream come true they had a ‘whirlwind‘ romance which in my mind equaled a ‘hair-brained scheme‘ and started making this big noise about how they ‘these two perfections of existencefinally met each other. I was like, “whatever”.  I mean six weeks after they meet they’re engaged and she’s moving to the other side of the country. It was actually a relief to me because she was such a showboat and wanting me to be her sidekick. There were times she was actually very kind to me and I am having guilt now thinking about her uncharitably. She was very annoyingly status orientated though and continuously drawing me into drama and competition with others that I had no interest in.

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She wanted me to be her maid of honor. She wanted me to make her wedding dress. Despite her immediate relocation, the planning for the wedding was at least a year-long.  She came back for a visit and was describing what she wanted to me. She was artistic and had some sketches. She casually told me she was pregnant and going to have an abortion while she was here. 

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It distressed me and I pleaded with her. Why? Why on earth? We can make adjustments… She looked at me cooly and explained that she “didn’t want that kind of wedding“. I  tried to gently argue with her. She knew her mind.

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Sometimes people online tell me they don’t believe my stories. As I relate this one I kind of don’t want to believe it either. It still makes me sick. Sick in the way I feel it send unhappy messages all around my skin and not actually throw up but feel really physically angry about this clown world.

Maybe I just pay attention more than other people or maybe I give people the impression that I won’t judge them? Idk.

I do know I pulled out of the wedding and made some cursory excuse. I didn’t think I was that rude but I still remember having lunch with yet another ‘friend’ at some nightmareishly trendy restaurant in “Upper Valencia” (that’s a joke, kinda) and second friend really took me to task about ‘dirting’ our mutual ‘friend’. Why’d you do it? She liked you so much?” 

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I shrugged my shoulders and looked around. I knew I couldn’t tell her it was because bride-friend’s lack of regard for ‘clumps of cells’ like me and you and her made me wildly disgusted and wonder what the point of living as a clump of cells was worth at all. “Feelings aren’t always mutual” I noted as I shoved more salad in my face and met her gaze again. (Christ, maybe I am autistic.)

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In no way do I want to suggest that Bride-friend was the norm. That’s why I believe in keeping abortion legal. I honestly believe the norm is a mom who has three kids or so that can’t feed them all. I freely admit this conclusion of mine is based on my feels.

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Despite the phrase,”That’s not the kind of wedding I want” continuing to haunt me and despite my illustrious career of being socially awkward. The older I get the more times I reflect on my lack of popularity and think: I may have been in the dark about many things but at least I respected myself and had good instincts (Not a universal truth but at least occasionally). If anyone thinks she was somehow punished for her vanity, as far as I know that is not the case. She had a status-appropriate child one-year later. 

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All these years later I still live around people who wonder why I “did that to Fake Friend“. I have no desire to be public with her situation in a way that could harm her. I believe more than ever though that if you really care about women; your goal will to be to end feminism. 

 

This is the oft misunderstood song Tupac wrote about feminism. There are some rules that are universal. Tupac was like any person with heart. He hated cultural marxism. He loved his people.  

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(The jail-bars in the video represent the cultural marxism he hated. He’s laughing at the powers that be because he knew that even after the communists killed him he would fight feminism from beyond the grave. He dog-whistled but we all understood. Tupac was a champion of the people vs. the reptilian. That’s why he’s Obie Wan Kanobining  in real time.)

Lady thrown in pool is obvious hate crime; Libs under Marxist anesthesia but they’re not beyond recovery

I know fox (((666))) News but whatevs…

Regardless, at least they are covering it. I don’t even think the woman is white, at least not my stripe of whitelady. She’s jewish. Real whiteladies like myself are much too timid to wade into a big group of black peoples. And I’m even tough enough to have chased a black man out of a club after he punched me in the face for being white- but numbers,were on my side .well  as brave as I like to tell the story to myself,if I had seen that number of blacks or hispanics I would have known better to get close to them at all. Jews on the other hand have very little sexual dimorphism. It’s curious how they push it on every other race so much. It reminds me of my favorite thing to say, ‘you can only build what’s inside you’  or my other favorite, ‘you can’t truly understand what you cannot build

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Bees don’t owe their honeycombs to wasps or cockroaches either.

It actually  makes me feel a bit kinder toward (((those))) that want to wipe beauty off the earth and destroy my people. In the sense that just as whiteladies stupidly project our kindness and desire to nurture onto other groups. We can’t help ourselves. We want to believwe will be the plucky whiteladies taking the world’s hands and bringing peace to the world.

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(the above whitelady porn shows me how easy it is to create equality and should let everyone else know how dangerous I am. It’s not that fun to be awared of this )

 Jewish women are by nature very masculine and aggressive by WASP standards.

Nevertheless these yufs . not discern the nuance between white and “I’m not white I’m jewish”

(((Cringe))) you into next year fo’ shizzle muh Hymieizzle.

One of the things that bothers me personally the most about these incidents and the ridiculous reactions by ‘open-minded liberals who refuse to discriminate’ (discrimination and good judgment are the most important qualities anyone can embody).  Is that even when I was one of those cotton-headed people who refused to recognize what I was seeing with my own eyes and hearing with my own ears and even worse than that suffering very personal consequences to myself and people I loved- I was so desperate to believe that we were all the same.

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How much harm tomyself and others that I allowed because I didn’t want to believe that others are fundamentally different than us.  I say this as a person that has no hate in her heart for anyone. I don’t hate other races. I don’t hate other races any more than I would hate a tiger for being a tiger or sheep for being a sheep. There are people I love very much that are not white and in no way think all of any group is the same. I believe that Jeffery Dahmer is my race as is John Wayne Gacey-these are not the only white people that disgust me BUT-None of these examples in any way refute the fact that my people in large groups are not safe around other people in large groups and there is no benefit to white Americans to tolerate this or engage in this.

While I even believe there is a tolerance of foreigners that we can successfully integrate and would quite frankly be happy too share the incredible value of our culture with-it’s not our obligation. OUr only obligation is to protect the valuable culture we inherited. A culture that does not exist without us. A culture that we are stewards of and is not ours to give away out of cowardice.

 

 

You know I think we could use Hart-Cellar as some kind of legal basis for White-Safe-Zone

 

Sociopathic SOB lies to us about what will happen to our society. Listen to what he says. The Jews lied once again.  They promised it would not change our livesIt did. My city not only demands codified against whites civil servant tests. It demands anti-white people regulation with CCP and other ethnic groups. Scumbag LBJ  betrayed us. Scumbag LBJ made an oral contract that he did not uphold.

 

 

He changed our lives. He destroyed our communities . We need to sue these sons of bucks.  

 

I am quite cereal. I don’t super want to go on about this because this whole process is taking a lot of time and transcription. Believe it or not- I do other things besides act like a total “j3rk” on the internet. I also manage to find the time to make people I know that have prostrated their ‘small-bug-sized souls’ on the alter of Politically cucked-super uncomfortable -and pay a high price- Because you can’t always claim as Voltaire taught us- “Don’t beat me I am a metaphysician”. 

I think I will die alone under a bridge. The weird thing is I am pretty okay with that. I would rather die alone under a bridge than live my life on my knees. What are you going to do? I am quite sure I will be a fabulous looking hobo.

I currently see so many white hobos. Because our families are small by our nature and our countries have been invaded by people who hate us.I know I have complained about boomers but when I do I am not talking about the increasingly female boomers that I walk by with no family folding into themselves. 

Oops! Got super-ranty bc feels. Back to argument. Okay super-sadist LBJ lied to the American people. “Your life will not change” Our lives changed rather quickly. In my city- duper baloney lib toilet you don’t have to worry about knowing Spanish to get a job with the city you have to worry about knowing 中文 not to get a job as a translator but to get a job as a crossing-guard organizer or to work in the Department of Public Works 越南人 may also help.

LBJ the fancy doge-torturer 

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More later so tiredhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7HMEBLRt6iI