A couple of days ago a young man asked me if I went to the fair last weekend. “there was a fair?” I asked.
He nodded and quietly said “yes“. My mini-mind searched it’s memory and came up with this:
what he meant however is this:
I said no. I said ‘hell to the nah nah’ I said that is not healthy.
I related a memory of when there was a fabric store on the same street as this fair. I didn’t remember the date as I have never been a fan of it. I was attempting to buy some fabric and a giant huWhite man dressed in a nazi costume complete with swastika and riding crop gave me the once over twice. I was actually kind of terrified. The cops were close by so I didn’t bother so much.
I thought about it later. How is it that wearing a nazi costume while attending a degenerate ball doesn’t even get a second glance? While at the same time simply being white or advocating for free speech gets you called a nazi in a pejorative way? How is it that a young man thinks it is perfectly acceptable to ask a woman he doesn’t know very well if she went to a BDSM fête?
Is they hate our guts. But the idea that we are left alone makes them lose control of their bowels.
We hate you but we can’t live without you. Btw I agree with a lot of what Richard “I’ve got great hair” Spencer says but I would be way more insanely fascist. So I am not aligning with him.
The idea that I hate other people out of some weird color dysphoria is beyond silly. the idea I don’t like to be around people who are violent toward me for no reason whatsoever is pretty understandable.
Tell me again why I should appreciate Congolife?
This is not revolting because why? We financially support this because why? This has anything to do with me because why?
But we are not allowed to not participate because that is hate speech? I’m not seeing the part that is in it for me.
But you white people don’t ever think you can escape. You owe these people for an unknown reason. You will never be free. OH and btw we are oppressed because jealousy. Die.
One of my social media strategies is to always keep a few people I am diametrically opposed to in my feed. I have this irrational thought that I can break any spell I am under with information from the opposition. Why I think this is necessary? Some strange addiction to integrity. Integrity really means virginity-when virginity means unbroken or whole.
But I was born into a world of duality and triangulation. A world of tension and competition-how can completeness be possible in a world that struggles against itself?
So I had this dialogue w/a woman who supports Black Lives Matter. I may write more about this. It was actually quite painful for me on many levels that would take too many words.
I asked her what she wanted. This is confusing for me. Again- I know but another post. She said she wanted to be heard. She said that black people (I don’t believe she meant all- but many) feel less-than. To be ‘heard’ is imperative. After that-there is not a lot of definite direction. They are hurt. Granted. All living beings are hurt. It’s the deal.
Bc I was a linguistics major-or maybe I’m just saying that to prop my theory up- I thought of a story that I can’t remember the source of atm. It was of a white man in Africa last mid-century. He wanted to record and define a variety of African languages. You know- in a dictionary. He made friends with the locals. He recalls being asked why he had an English dictionary by two friendly women. Wasn’t English his language?
He responded affirmatively. “Then why don’t you know all the words already?” was their basic response. They knew all the words of their language as it lived only in them.
This story ran in my head as this black woman relayed the NEED TO BE HEARD to me. I tried to explain that when white people hear you-we tend not to respond in a dramatic way. YT takes in information- processes it internally and searches for solutions. But making a big noise is looked down on and suspicious in our culture. That does not mean we don’t hear or don’t care.
When YT came to Africa- the Africans did not have written language. Why would they? We developed in a land of privation-while they developed in a land of plenty.
Therefore to what purpose would Africans have sitting in their huts configuring reference manuals when life was so plentiful to them? None. They would however need to pass down certain charms-medicinal treatments-cultural norms. If their tradition was oral vs. written- the best way to do this is repetition. There is no reference manual. Your children’s health and well-being is based on repetition. Your immediate concern would be referencing the past.
On the other hand- yt’s survival is contingent on planning for the future. huWhytes have to always be thinking of the future bc just like blacks looking toward the past for best strategy for survival-our survival depends on planning for cold deathly winters that we may very well not survive. But if there is a written record—
I believe this is a fundamental reason we are so incompatible. Perhaps this could be helped if it was understood. Whites are the most compassionate people. Blacks on the other hand don’t seem to have any concern for others. If I am wrong please give me an example. (I do believe their are outliers and am actually not racist) It’s funny how being observant is ‘racism’. When I say I am not racist- I mean I am not unkind to people of other races-it doesn’t mean I cannot see or hear or recognize patterns. Give me an example though of blacks being empathetic to a group of anything including animals that doesn’t serve their own needs. There are a kajillion of white ones. Including organizations that benefit blacks.
I don’t have the answer. I am quite sure though that the continued censorship and harassment of white people is NOT THE BEST START AND WILL NOT END WELL. WE ARE THE MOST DISCIPLINED OF ALL. CHECK YOURSELVES. OUR PATIENCE WHILE LONG HAS ITS LIMITS.